Little rant

Jim Halpert: Because right now, this is a job. If I advance any higher, this would be my career. And if this were my career, I'd have to throw myself in front of a train.

That quote right there speaks so much about how I feel right now. Over the past 3 months I have come to realize that if I do not get out of my current job, I will be miserable for the rest of my life. There is no way I can do something that I do not love or my heart is not in it. Everyday when that alarm clock goes off it is like torture (recently my clock has been setting itself back like 3 hours so I never wake up on time, ghosts maybe?)

Recently I have had a string (and by string I mean a tiny thread) of luck with 2 straight weeks with an interview. One I thought was for a talent agency….Wrong! The other was for this production company and hopefully I will get it because the place was great. From the people I meet who were really cool, a laid back office (goodbye dressing up), great location in the City, and a dog just chillen in the office. What more could a person ask for? Even if I don’t land this opportunity I know that at least my resume is being looked at by some places.

My only problem is that it is coming down to the wire for me. I really don’t know how much longer I can do what I am doing or pretend that I am enjoying it. If it weren’t for the people I meet in my class chances are I would have gone insane, became depressed, or all the above plus more.

That and seeing as how I can’t stand my town anymore because there really isn’t anything left for me there. Friends have come and gone and honestly I can no longer pretend to be or give my all to “friends” who can’t even be bothered by me. Yea I know I am not the best person around, but I don’t think I burned that many bridges with my actions or how I feel about some people. Hopefully by getting out I can finally be happy again.